SHANNELLE
What They See, and What They Never Bother to Look For
The Surface
They see the girl who looks like money,
like life kissed her forehead once
and promised the world would never touch her.
They see the clothes, the glow, the easy laughter,
and file her under fine
before she has said a single word.
How strange that a stranger's glance
can build an entire person
out of light and fabric,
and never once ask
what is standing behind it.
They called her spoiled.
Said she had never swallowed a sorrow,
never smiled with a heart
that was splintering underneath.
They read her face like it was the whole book.
They mistook her silence for peace,
her laughter for proof,
and their assumptions for the truth.
The Girl Who Makes You Forget
But Shannelle is not the box they built.
She is the one who makes you forget,
if only for a moment,
that growing up in this world
means learning to bleed without making a sound.
There is something almost sacred in her,
something childlike,
as though a little girl still lives in there
who refused to surrender
to the weight of being alive.
Not childish.
Innocent.
The kind of softness that makes ordinary moments gentler,
the kind of light that never needed an occasion.
And that is the cruelest part,
how someone can carry so much of the dark
and still hand out light
like it costs her nothing.
The Rooms
Somewhere inside her there are rooms.
Doors she keeps shut,
a thin line of light pressed beneath each one.
Behind them:
thoughts she never learned how to say,
memories she would rather leave sleeping,
battles that never earned a name,
feelings that die on the way
to becoming sentences.
I wonder what happens
when the laughter finally leaves,
when the phone goes quiet,
when the room empties of everyone
who needs her to be okay.
Does she sit there with the dark
and no one to tell?
Does she wish someone would notice she is hurting
without making her explain the wound?
Does she wish to be understood
without having to draw a map
of every place she has broken?
I don't know.
And that is the part that haunts me.
What I Know
She told me she has her battles.
Only that.
Only enough for me to know
the story is longer than the one she tells.
I won't pretend to read the chapters
she folded shut.
I won't hand her pain a name
she hasn't chosen herself.
I will only stand outside the door,
quiet,
hand open,
wondering about the pages she keeps,
the words she swallows,
the weight she carries gently
because some things are too heavy
to lift into language.
Maybe she doesn't want questions.
Maybe she doesn't want pity.
Maybe she only wants one moment
where being herself is enough,
where she doesn't have to perform happiness
or turn her pain into a story
for someone else's comfort.
Maybe she wants permission
to be the girl who laughs
and the girl who is drowning,
on the same day,
in the same body,
without anyone calling it a lie.
Pain Is An Equal Thief
Because pain does not check your appearance
before it walks in.
It doesn't care how much money they think you have,
how beautiful you look,
how easily you make a room laugh,
or how carefully you hide
what you cannot bear to explain.
It comes in the night,
takes what it wants,
and leaves you smiling by morning
so no one knows
anything was stolen.
Pain is an equal thief.
And the ones everyone assumes have everything
are sometimes starving
for what no one can buy, borrow,
or ask the world to give them.
Peace, maybe.
Understanding, maybe.
One person who looks past the surface
and does not leave
when the picture turns complicated.
To You
And Shannelle,
if there is one thing I wish the world understood,
it is that you are not obligated
to make your suffering visible
before it becomes real.
You don't have to cry in public
to deserve gentleness.
You don't have to tell the whole story
to deserve someone who listens.
You don't have to break in front of people
before they believe
you have been carrying something heavy.
And you do not have to become
a different person
because the world misread
the one you already are.
You can be the playful girl.
The sweet girl.
The girl who looks like she has never had a care in the world,
and still be someone
who has survived battles
nobody would ever guess.
Those versions of you do not contradict each other.
They belong to the same girl.
You.
Looking Deeper
And maybe that is what looking deeper really means.
Not forcing open every locked door.
Not demanding every secret.
Not believing that to understand someone
is to own all of them.
It means staying curious
without becoming a trespasser.
It means giving someone room to speak
without making silence feel like a crime.
It means seeing the smile
and not assuming the absence of grief,
seeing the softness
and not assuming the absence of strength.
It means knowing that even the brightest-looking lives
hold shadows
that never make it into the photographs.
Let Them
So let them keep their assumptions.
Let them call you spoiled
if that is the easiest story
their minds know how to tell.
Let them misread your silence
if they never cared enough to listen.
You do not owe the world a performance
designed to prove that you are human.
You owe no one your bleeding.
Unfinished
Because I suspect there is so much more to Shannelle
than the version strangers get.
A heart carrying more than it admits.
A softness that deserves protecting, not harvesting.
A girl full of laughter
who still has nights
she doesn't know how to talk about.
A girl who is still a mystery
even to the people who love her.
And maybe we never finish discovering another soul.
Maybe friendship is only the unfinished work
of meeting someone again and again,
finding new rooms inside them,
and learning when to knock
instead of demanding to be let in.
What I Hope
So, Shannelle,
I hope life sends you people
who don't mistake your exterior for your identity,
who don't confuse your quiet for empty,
who don't need you to bleed
before they believe you have wounds.
People who let you be silly.
People who let you be serious.
People who can hold your laughter
and respect your silence.
And if there are rooms in you
you have never shown anyone,
I hope you make peace with them,
in your own time,
in your own way.
You don't have to reveal every shadow
for your light to be real.
You don't have to explain every scar
for your healing to matter.
Some parts of you belong to you alone.
And until the world learns how to look
without judging,
to listen without forcing,
to care without demanding
that every wound be shown,
I hope you never forget
that you are allowed to be
a thousand different things
in a single lifetime.
The girl who laughs.
The girl who dreams.
The girl who hurts.
The girl who heals.
The girl they think they know.
And the girl
they have yet to meet.
For Shannelle
Written with care